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Cancer Will Never Defeat Dad. Dad Update 1/21/2015

"In 2015 I start a year of gratitude. Instead of focusing on the how and the why...I focus on the change. I focus on the thankfulness of being where I am despite the journey that was walked. No more I wants, or please God's. But instead, I start and end with 'Thank You God'. "  Dana Hurst Dana Hurst is a fellow brain cancer caregiver and blogger, who lost her husband to the evil that is brain cancer. I read her blog often, and can't help but think there are times where she is speaking right to me. Letting me read the words I so badly needed, not necessarily wanted, to hear.  Gratitude. Giving gratitude to a God who has placed this brain cancer journey in my life. Giving gratitude to a power much greater than any doctor or treatment. And giving gratitude to a God who has watched as my family has struggled with the suffering that cancer involves.  But not only does Dana Hurst talk about giving gratitude, she also talks about the fight against suffering. She says...

An Understanding. 1/12/2015

Yesterday I stood next to two incredible women, as we discussed their battles against cancer. And Friday I answered numerous questions about Dad's treatment and side effects, as a wife and mother was diagnosed with the same type of tumor as Dad. During these interactions I realized one thing, we all have this incredible understanding with one another. We just get it.  An understanding. A mutual agreement between two people. A way of knowing exactly what someone is going through, without even saying a word.  That's what I've gained these last 15 months. An understanding with so many others. When Dad as diagnosed with brain cancer, more specifically glioblastoma-multiforme, I literally had no idea what that would involve. I had never heard of anyone with brain cancer, and I sure as heck had never heard of "glioblastoma". I did very little research those first few months, only enough to understand the treatment options and only enough to not scare the ever living lif...

Eyes Wide Open. 1/8/2015

The other day Mom asked me, "Do you think brain cancer is just so much more common now? Why do I keep hearing about it so often." Mom has a good point. In the time that Dad has been diagnosed with brain cancer (just 15 months ago), I know of 2 others diagnosed with brain cancer. Is it that brain cancer is much more common, or is it because my eyes are now open, wide open, to this battle?  When I hear of a recent diagnosis my stomach literally is in knots. It takes me right back to that cold hospital room where we found out Dad's tumor was malignant, where we found out it was Stage IV brain cancer, and where the word "cancer" literally took my breath away.  I go back to the person I was 15 months ago and I don't think I recognize her anymore. I've changed. I've become more aware of the battle so many others face. I've become more aware of my faith in a power much greater than any power here on earth. And I've become aware of HOPE. Hope and hop...